September 6th, 2007

Aww man!

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Shortpacked!: See? He's a cool guy.

I dropped off a handful of copies of Shortpacked! Brings Back the Eighties at the Laughing Ogre here in Columbus. If you're in the area and haven't ordered a copy yet, swoop and scoop one there while you can!

There were Batman jokes in It's Walky!, too, as the panel to the left attests. But that's incidental to the 2003 storyline at hand, "The Best I Could Do". The storyline is important to me for one big reason.

It made me bawl my eyes out.

Unlike Ruth, I didn't create Dina to die. And also in contrast with Ruth, I wanted to have a tragic death. Ruth found completeness and satisfaction right before she died. She'd atoned for everything she thought she'd done. But with Dina, I wanted to go the opposite direction. I wanted a sad ending. So I pushed her into more strips, showing her faults and giving her a reason for wanting to overcome them. And time and time again, she was unable to. Ultimately, she sacrificed her life to save what she loved, but believing that she'd failed all the same.

I drew the six strips leading up to her death late into the night, and when I finished inking her denouement, I sat back and cried like a little baby. It wasn't fair, you know. She should have gotten her happy ending. I was a horrible, horrible bastard. I did this to her.

I was about three months ahead in my strip-drawing at that point. I let my buffer run out before I could draw again.

You know, something I've noticed about characters you kill off. They're always the characters that readers hate. But after they die? Suddenly, they're their favorites! It happened with Ruth and it happened with Dina. Poor Dina. Nobody appreciated her while she was around.

Lord knows I didn't.

It's partly why I intentionally revisited parts of her in Amber. They're both uncomfortable around people and are constantly overwhelmed. I'd like to think Amber can eventually find her happiness where Dina couldn't, redeeming both Dina and myself.